Lying down at beach is one of my many luxurary plans. Here I am at the Koh Tao beach, enjoying listening the sea patting the beach, watching kids play the water and ...

When i am too relaxed, there won't be any witty ideas left in my head. All there left are blue sky, dark blue sea, coconut trees, bungalows, sand beach with kids playing. colorful fishes, boat, kayaking...

One in a few months

It is the first time in the last few months that I could sit down quietly write something for myself. Just now, I was madly searching for jobs that I could possibly apply to. This may sound pathetic but there is not one single job I may find promotely happy with. Born to be picky about my own life, my hairstyle, my look, my way of dressing, how it looks in my room and how everything looks in front of me. Maybe i should start to learn design, no matter interior design or fashion design. Jobs that require a lot of physical strength do not suit me at all but jobs require little brain work would bore me into hell.

Nowadays, I have just started learning guitar but I have not been a good student lately. I have got an Apple computer to develop some teaching materials.

Every time when I go to the job search website, I feel dizzied by millions of job ads appeared in front of me.

A moody birthday!

30, is not a too bad a number in one's age, but rather should be a more glorious one. For me, it is a wired number as I am trying to connect what have happend to me and would happen to me in future. Possitively, if I could live up to 150 years old, I would have gone through one fifth of my life time. To be less possitive, for living up to 90 years old if I am lucky and careful, one third of my life have just left me. For both situations, by the time I would have to leave this world, I would be a old, ancient, wobbly old granny without teeth. Ahhhhhhh... I haven't collected enough courage yet to live to that age yet.

In Chinese culture, 30 years old is Er Li Zhi Nian, meaning the year you should have established your own life style with some saving, preferrable an apartment and marriage with a child. I do have my own style but without saving, apartment, kids but with a caring husband who happens not to be rich. Sounds like that I am complaining about my life. right!

Why make fuss about 30 years old, it is just another day in another year. I get on with it just like how I try to get on with any Monday I have been having so far. I hate Monday but not as much as before because I only need to arrive in school around 12am. I still hates it the moment I woke up and found out that I haven't done many things. Once I have a cup of tea and taken shower, I become human again like now for example.

Nothing more and nothing less. getting myself sorted here.

Dinner with friends at my birthday evening was cosy and heartwarming. David chose the place, a spanish restrauant which serves 'the best tupas in Beijing'. I don't have many friends here, mainly people in the same circle (Daivd's colleagues and wives) and we happen to like hanging out together a lot. and Nancy who I have been friends with since we were in Wuhan and her husband was a colleague of David. Small circle but nice people.

I just realize that for the last three or four years, i have been celebrating my birthday with different group of people. The reason is that i have moved a lot, from Wuhan to Qinghai, from China to England, and from England back to Beijing, China. Each year I met new group of people, when i move to another place, they stay or move to somewhere else. It is like drifting...

To be continued

Could not see any shade of moon!

A bit dissapointed with the weather as it was lightening and squeezing some rain drops. As a result, no moon can been seen in the black sky. Well, i didn't plan much for the moody evening anyway because David would like to work on the last bit of his PhD correction, some of my friends are not around. Don't get me wrong, i didn't find lonely but i enjoyed the evening as i have gone through it. Enjoy the quietness, inside and outside.

Mid-Autumn Day

This would be my ideal night for the mid-autumn day.
Dusty, smoggy and grey ! that is Beijing morning for this mid-autumn day. Yesterday i was complaining to David about my lungs that i found difficult to breath properly and the copacity of my lungs seemed much weaker than the
past. He said it was partly due to my lack of exercises and the pollution in Beijing. I just started cycling to work and I often do some yoga at home, so it seems irrelavant to say that my weaker lungs are results of less exercises. Pollution, oh yes! particularlly go very well with dry climate here. Chemicals, and dusts mix together for every intake of breath. For this, i feel Beijing disgasting.

Well, shouldn't let things that you can't change ruin my day ahead. or put it this way, the day has been ruined, try not to make it worse.

For some reason, I have some special interests in celebrating this mid-autumn day. Not because of that i like eating the moon cakes or want to just find some excuses parting, but i have a lot of memories of celebrating the day when i was much younger. One of my cusins who used to work in Guangzhou liked to mail some authentic Kantoonese style moon cakes-- my favourites, because back then many people from north of Guangdong did not appreciate their moon cakes as much as they do now. One of my uncle was born on one mid-autumn day years ago. The mid-autuman day is a lunar year festival, so it has different date each year on solar calendar, but we still celebrate the uncle's birthday according to the lunar calendar. When my greatparents were still alive, we used to visit them for this day and really do things such as eating mooncakes, drinking tea, appreciating moon and singing or reading Chinese poems. Now, for me it is quite difficult to find friends who has similar interests, in particular in this city with no family around.

No matter what, i am going to cook meal, buy some moon cakes and maybe invite some friends around for the moon cake festival.

To start with...

After the biggest crash of my powerbook G3 500MHz Memory 256MB (yes, pretty old by now) in 4 years, I decided to start my new advanture online again ( hehe, tried out blog before but never continued it) and I hope this time I am serious about it.