Thursday, February 22, 2007

Why continue going to university?

My cousin's reaction towards my determination for a PhD degree strikes me really hard. 'Why do you want to do a PhD in a university while you can gain as much experiences at your work?' He is a very rich man and he said this when I asked him for financial support. I told him that I wanted to become a university lecture, he replied me ' why on earth do you want to work in a university?' 'because I feel becoming a scholar suits me better and plus it is Oxford' He didn't say much but I can feel his disapproval.

Then I come across this article http://www.plasticbag.org/archives/2004/07/what_you_should_know_before_starting_a_doctorate/
it really stirs my mind a lot... when I have to make a decision between going to uni again with lots of debts, and getting pregnant in China, what can I do?

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

All ready for the Spring festival


Next weekend is the Spring Festival, but the strange feeling I have is that it is just another holiday break and has nothing to do with the Chinese New Year. It sounds all dangerous as the New Year used to be the biggest festival that I had longed for when I was younger. I wonder if it is because I am older and wiser to be practical about it is just another day in my life, or there are really lack of cheers for the Chinese New Year celebration around.

For the last week or two, my beginning Chinese groups have been working on several performances such as a small play called Three Little Piggy, two songs: one is Laoshu Ai Dami, one of the most popular song in China for the last two years I think, the other one is Bude BuaiJinsheKuangwu which loved by my African students. An American Chinese boy in Year 7 is going to play with Pipa which is quite impressive. Suddenly, I have become a drama teacher, music teacher, and even an instrument teacher. This is totally not the reason I come to work for this school. The celebration needs me to make such a have-to contribution.

Still, these preparations do not make me feel that we are preparing for the Spring festival. Instead, it is just preparation for another assembly in Harrow, indeed it is. The celebration for the Chinese New Year is going to be on Friday which one day before the Chinese New Year. My mum insisted that we should go back to Wuhan for the time and refused our invitation to celebrate the New Year in Beijing. So booking tickets becomes a headache for me, in fact for many, at this time of the year. Last time I checked there was only tickets avaiable on the New Year Eve, so I am still waiting for the chances to get tickets for the day before the Eve. Anyway, mum is calling me home and I feel the urge to get tickets the night before the New Year Eve. The urge that drags me back to Wuhan stings me slightly and it seems something or someone tries to tell me that it is a time for a family reunion and it has to be one day before the Eve.