Wednesday, April 16, 2008

A turning point

Things will move on its own way not matter you are worried about it or not. As I was trying my best to do my job and expect nothing than peace and quiet between Alice and me, the conflict between her and me works out its own way. As I was wondering how to phrase my resignation and where to celebrate my freedom after this month, an email sending from my future supervisor inviting me writing a book chapter with her (with me as the first author). Of course, I am ecstatic and lifted up quite a bit. That means between the end of my current job and my PhD study I will have a solid target to work on. Having the thought that this is going to be my first English language publication, the enjoyment is undescrible. The only problem would be that David and I would be in Europe during my writing process, but Cammie doesn't mind that at all as long as I could produce results. I love it... this is a dream situation. I have always had the dream that I could become a writer so that no matter where I go, I could just write for living. Go jump off the bridge, my current boss! She wanted me to have done a research and had one to two paper published in three months. In her wild dream of becoming young again, maybe. She let out the words to the other colleagues that she was doubting about my research ability and ready to let me go. I was of course very angry and ready to just get my pay and make her just kiss my ass. The next thing I know is that she is offering me a three months half-time contact to finish with my project. Without seeing her every week, and have more free-time typing and researching on the topic I am interested in. My ego let me go ahead despite of all the fuss about it. Business is business! She wants publication, and I am interested in offering it as I have worked so long for it, plus I got my holiday time, therefore I went ahead. David thinks that I am crazy to agree to continue working with her, but I think it is more for myself than for her. To finish up the current research and write about it is will be my main job description. There will be no more of her changeable nonsenses on this project and that project that she had no commitment about. Most importantly, she apologizes for not giving me enough support and values very much of my contribution to her kingdom come. Yeah, right! She wants to see result, so do I ... therefore I agreed ... Deal with the challenge is in my hand now...

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