Sunday, February 08, 2009

I was lonely on Sundays...

I feel particularly lonely on Sundays when David and I are having a fight, then he went to church without me. He is a cold bastard... so cold as if there were nothing happened between us, neither fights or intimates.
I can't function properly at the moment as the fight I had with him just makes me want to leave this relationship and never come back. I do have my flaws and he has his. I nag him every now and then but never criticize him as severely as that. I was cooking, he tried to look for things to set up the table but could not find the settings. He went on asking " where is this? where is that? I can't find them". I was trying to fix 5 or 6 dishes at that time, so I didn't respond to him at all and took the harsh criticisms. He kept on and on... I think he had lost any interests or faith in me, and start to
Imagine I did exactly the same thing he did to me. He was busily cooking and I came around to look for stuff but couldn't find some. Then I started to blame him where he put all the stuff and whey everywhere was so messy.
He still did not say anything either apologetic or appreciating. He is trying to use his old way of getting back to me by teasing me, touching, pulling my hair and so on and so forth. It doesn't work for me anymore. He wants to play the little trick and win me back. No way, why doesn't he start to behave like a responsive adult this time and initiate a open talk with me, rather trying to treat me like one of his pets or so, patting me a few times and expecting me to forget about the fights we just had. Hooligan... total barbarian hooligan...a Chauvinist pig...

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