No he does not care...

I have been in pain with my neck and head and came home in tears. He did not see, ask, and care to even get close to me. Cold blood, yeah that's the first word popped into my head. Why should he care? I didn't ask him, so there is no need. I guess. The thoughts of dying keep circling around my head. People who I know died from headache, suffered from brain tumor, or went abnormal in behaviour because of the tumor cells grew into the head. They were two acquaintances and the other one was my father. I am scared, very scared and also upset about my own situation. The headache has been there for about a week and I went to clinic at university, but no doctor was available for my problem. My whole head feels that filled with air and it is about to exploded from the back. It also feels that some airs trapped inside and could not come out at all. I need to get stronger... if he acts this cold towards me, how am I supposed to do? Be stronger and hold on until tomorrow so I can visit the hospital and have it check up. I thought being in relationship would at least give me some comfort. The way he went straight into his room after making the dinner and close the door behind him, as if he threw a handful of ice cubes at me. This is just how much he loves me, as he always claims. Just be stronger, either things will all be well, or be really bad. Either way I didn't come to this world in vain, though if I left, I would have some disappointments with me, but I guess I need to learn how to handle them myself, not relying on someone else.