What I want

What do I want? I want to sucessfully graduate from my PhD and find a stable job, at the same time to have a baby and settle down. He wants to go around and I am tired of wonder around without knowing where is home. I am tired of friends that are drift away from me because I or they moved. I would like to become a mother before my 36th birthday which is two years away. I do not want to move around anymore. I do not want to go to another country just because he has a new job there. I would like to go if I can also find a position there. I would like to have something that I could find myself in. I would like to enjoy myself and say things what I want to say without worrying being slapped around in cold tones or shushed. There are something that I really want to do in China alone. Like opening a bookstore for young people... do something help promting children's reading and writing ability... even I may want to write books for children...