Life with peace!

what a day! A day without the man. Everything is calm inside me, and everything goes well and in peace, which surprises me a lot. Yoga helps me to concentrate on things that matter and ignore things that are disturbing. It is a dicipline to self-control my thoughts, but I am trying to managing them well so far. The thoughts of separating from him is so strong that I found myself cooling down from the anger. I am not angry with him that much anymore, but I know it is not going to work out between him and me. All these time I have been telling myself trying live with reality, trying accept the reality, but the more I try, the more I find myself squeazed into a corner that I could not get out and find it difficult even to breath. It is really difficult to live with him without worry and nervousness. The fights and row between us become draining and pointless. Once the decision is made and I am trying to live with the fact that we are living separate lives together. I suddenly feel relieved for many reasons. I need to relax a little bit more and enjoy my own life, instead of negotiating with his and trying to fit in his all the time. I don't think there is much to change in his life except for there is one less in his life, but for me my whole routine is different and a lot more livilier. Maybe it is still early to say things like these. I will keep live my own way and he lives his. We will see where the different ways take him and I to!