Getting emotionally just like that?

Feeling stuck somewhere is how I feel when I get emotional and slightly depressed. No one can help, not even someone who is closest to me at the moment. There is always something wrong between us no matter how I try. We just can not be compatiable with each other. I don't hate him but rather hate myself not being able to free myself from this deteriating marriage. This is the first time in a month I am pitying myself like this. Of course, there is a cause that the chemistry is just not there anymore and I don't feel loved in this relationship although he announced that he loved me every now and then. What kind of love is that? close relative? I have to be strong on this no matter how I am going to bear this for the next three even four years. I just need take what ever the consequences and work very hard to finish my PhD and get as many paper published as possible. Nothing else is that important anymore. Who cares how you feels now? Who cares about the quality of your marriage? Get on and live with it. Sieze my day and do something useful...